flippantbebe's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- first step: recognize that you have an addiction i think i'm too attached. to this.. the internet... i love discovering new bands and new songs to download. i love feeding my eyes with gorgeous colors by newfound, talented artists. i love reading stories, blogs, excerpts, and entries by wonderful writers and dreamers. i love hearing what people have to sing about. i love perusing through the photos of friends and strangers, falling in love with every person in that photo for their happy smiles and shining eyes. but now i'm worried that i'm obsessed with their online identities. i am genuinely attached to these people.. even you guys in diaryland... i want everyone to be okay and i just want them to update me so i can follow what's going on with their lives... i can't stand not knowing what's going on. and i have yet to get into podcasts and video blogs... and i don't have a web cam ... so those are unopened areas of the net to explore and be more obsessed with. i don't want to be into this so much that i'll be heartbroken and crying because of someone's experience...i've cried so many times by the glow of the computer screen and most of the time i have never seen their picture. sometimes i just want to end this love affair... i need to concentrate on myself... but maybe this is how i find myself... through them.. and maybe through you... i discover my interests and get inspired to create and to write and to do. but honestly... i delve into this side more often than i post up... in fact i probably look at someone's profile more than i ever talk to them. and i have a number of sns on my buddylist that i want to IM but can't because i don't know them that well/ or at all. i just don't want to be come an addict again... that's all. eileen 5:38 am - 01.12.07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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