flippantbebe's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- trying to appreciate someone like you God. I feel so stupid. Honestly. I was reading this email sent in from a friend of a suicide victim to wooster collective: "I am writing to inform you of my friend, Max Cancellieri. Max was 18, and attended Vermont Academy, in Saxton's River, VT. Max started writing graffiti, from what his friends can recollect, around 9th grade. His throwups were JinxRel, sometimes just Rel, and "THT", which stood for "think happy thoughts". Max was a natural, excelling in graffiti and studio art. His studio art work was dark, cartoonish, but scathingly satirical of the morals of modern American society, the most famous of which being "The Hug", which featured the oblique shapes of two humans hugging, both different colors, along with the caption, "Oh No!", or sometimes something different depending on Max's attitude at the time. Another recurring character of his was Edgar, a cartoon profile of a weathered, grotesque man who was undoubtedly Max's take on what it was like to be put through the system, so to speak. Max was arrested and charged with Vandalism by Graffiti in August, 2006 and again in November of the same year, in Boston, MA. Max's graffiti influenced his friends undeniably. His best friend, Jay, who is my roommate, began writing towards the beginning of 2006, his other best friend/roommate Steven and myself began later in the year, bouncing ideas off of Max and being inspired by his undeniably genius work and sick handstyle. Sadly, Max was becoming more and more overwhelmed by the society in which he lived. When he was arrested the second time for writing graf, the boston cops roughed him up a bit, calling him a faggot, asking him what he was doing writing on walls that werent his, and confiscated his shoes and pants, leaving him in jail for the night in just his underwear, and he appeared in court the next morning in the same state of undress. Max thought that no one would appreciate his art, that the world was a horrible place full of ignorant, unnappreciative people, and 3 weeks ago, he hung himself at his home in Armunk, New York. Max was one of the most talented artists I have ever seen, hands down. If he hadn't taken his own life, he would have been kinging cities before he was 20. His art was amazing, and the legacy he left behind is staggering. Before he killed himself, he painted two final paintings whose emotional impact is incredible. At the ceremony, his crew (THT) was allowed to paint his casket before he was buried. His mom wrote, "Bye Max" on it as well, and we all agreed, she has the dopest Mom handstyle we've ever seen. The casket came out amazing, I have never seen anything like it. During the ceremony, the synagogue reeked of spray paint, and it was at that point we realized that Max's art was too significant as well as brilliant to keep silent. Max never got the recognition he deserved, he was never able to king a city, to get up with the likes of his heroes, even though he shared their talent, dedication, and passion. Max loved Wooster Collective, especially how it gave artists with the heart and talent the chance to shine. Please help us give Max his chance to shine. Max always reminded me of Van Gogh, from the time I first met him, and it is easier to deal with knowing that his taking of his own life was not just an act of desperation, but sort of the companion piece to Max's final works. As messed up as that might sound to some, we're all looking at things a bit differently upon realizing that this was partly another one of Max's dynamic attempts at empowering his art. He would have given anything for it, and eventually, he did. The night that Max took his own life, he was supposed to be going to the Wooster on Spring Street opening in NY. Rest assured, we love Wooster Collective and think that you guys are one of the reasons why art will prevail." and I couldn't help thinking, "Max, you idiot. I could've fall in love with you. and I was tearing up and crying.. they were streaming and i was sniffling. and i thought this is why I stay up at night alone. i can't believe i was so touched by this story and so damn upset by it. he sounded amazing. his friend seemed amazing. and he was my age. and he killed himself. why? i just don't understand why someone would waste their talent and intellect like that.. just to punish us? i get so sad when i think about it. i swear, when i read obituaries and hear stories like these, i can get so emotional.... i wasn't even done reading it. in fact i;m still not done at all. i hope i never think about killing myself. i have too much to live for. and i hope i don't ever make anyone feel that way at all. i don't i want anyone to die because of me. i think i'll try to be nicer this semester... it doesn't hurt right? eileen 4:53 am - 01.16.07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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