flippantbebe's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- the eve of spring i can't believe that i'm ALREADY labeling myself after only 1 semester in college.. but hey... i might as well right? so this is what i've come up with: THE SILENT, STRAIGHT-LACED GEM This girl is rather shy, quite studious, probably pretty conservative, and usually somewhat attractive in a sort of clean, traditional, classic way. Sometimes, her quietness or straight face may be misinterpreted as indifference or the "get away from me" look, but once you get to know her, she is actually quite nice and makes a decent friend. She doesn't drink or smoke - not because she's a "goody two-shoes", but because she genuinely has no desire to. This girl may end up a loner if she's not careful - spending countless hours locked away in her dorm room, reading, or (if she pushes herself a little) can be found actually socializing. Gets along with most people, has a decent social circle, but holds just a few close friends. May need a little push to get involved in activities. Makes a reliable friend. Is a hard worker, but can enjoy having fun too. ^alright... i have no objection to drinking... but yeah... i really don't have a desire to smoke... it's not really my thing plus the bad side effects... and i do get involved... but i do have to be pushed into activities... and i can be semi-pretty... so yeah... it pretty much fits me well anyway... i'm moving into my dorm tomorrow.. or more specifically in like 12 or less hours from now... and i'm sooo fucking excited! i'm sort of dreading it... but i want to try so many fucking things it's ridiculous... like i don't know if i'll have time to do anything... but shit i want to do it all. i made this ridiculously long list in my facebook about all the things i want to do in my lifetime.. and i'm thinking about adding more... but it's already long but c'mon... if this was really the ultimate list of what i want to do in my life then it sucks ... cuz i should always find something to add because life is supposed to be interesting and shit.. and if i've stopped thinking of shit to do.. then i should move onto something else. and there's that list i made for this semester.. so many effin things i want to do... and i will try to attempt them all... and hopefully one thing from the other list. and you know what's the strange part of this? i want to do it all alone... i don't want a friend there... i don't want a boyfriend at all. they'll just get in the way... right now i just want to be antisocial and just fulfill myself. this is could be the strongest i've ever been. and it's nice. i'm soo glad i didn't go to rutgers... i would be staying at home, probably remaining the same (in terms of independence). but you know what? i think i've changed beyond that. which is soo fucking great. i'm a lot more open to things.. and talking too. and i stand up for myself a lot more. and i don't regret anything really. the only real regret is not talking to people sooner. but not this time. i'm gonna talk to the people i want to talk to as soon as i see them. it's going to be ... something... this semester. eileen 1:52 am - 01.16.07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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