flippantbebe's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- don't look at wall-to-wall if you can help it. This is something I don't understand... Ok. i have this crush right... on tom. and i looked at his wall.. and saw this girl named ali wrote on it... and i decided to look at their wall-to-wall conversation. and i read it. and i felt so turned off by it. it's innocent for sure yeah. but he asks her to hang out with him... a lot. and yeah i'm jealous. but ... i'm slightly pissed at him. i wish he could do that for me. ... i hate wall-to-wall. this was the only time it backfired on me.. usually i get to read a hilarious convo. but this time just bites. i have to stop being soo nosy and stalkerlike. joia is right... i do talk about him a lot.. but i can't help it if i'm comfortable enough to say shit like that to her. *sigh* they could be really close friends.. he may not even like her in that way... but he wants to go to NYC or Philly with her... why can't that be me? maybe if i lived in pine maybe if i was pretty maybe if i talked to him sooner maybe if i wasn't so intimadated by him like before and ... even now maybe if i was white? i have no fukn clue... but i can't let this bother me and i can't let this get in the way of crushing on him i mean he really do anything wrong. he just likes another girl better than me... which still hurts in its own right but i can't be jealous over this... well... i can... but it's awful to let this ... online interaction that i probably should have never saw... get to me like this. tom is a good guy and he deserves better than a brush off like this... right now i kind of don't want to try to talk to him anymore. he really didn't do anything to me god i hate facebook. if it weren't for my jealous tendencies i think i'd be a lot more happier... maybe not. eileen 3:50 am - 02.16.07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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