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too many needs that have to be done

Soo... yeah.

I don't know ... i feel like ignoring everyone.

and just not deal with any of them.

I mean it.

I'm getting annoyed at people for no reason.

and i should start my paper.. and my readings...

but am i going to?

probably not.

but just to prove myself wrong i'll do it.

anyway... i'm just... i don't know.

I'm just typing whatever is coming out first... of course i'm gonna press the backspace button.. that's all eventual.

I feel so out of place... it's really weird.

i need to fix that.

I want to feel better about this ... have a kick arse convo that will get me on the up and up...

but i don't know if that's gonna happen really.

that could've happened today... if i wasn't listening to my voicemail... tom came and passed me .. we said hi to each other...

and i don't know if he wanted to talk to me...

but i really wanna talk to him.

and yesterday... i saw him and brian at birch... but i was just gonna get take out ... and i picked it up and i only said hi to kristine and lauren... i was too lazy to go by them... i didn't even acknowledge to them that i saw them.

i don't even know if they like me... i feel like such a fuckn pest.

why am i like this?

i know i am annoying sometimes... but so annoying that they hate me??

that's fukn crazy.

but i don't know... people are weird... and so am i ... and i can't read how people think of me...

but oh well.. let it go right?

i'm completely frustrated with myself... i want to fix myself and get all happy like i was on monday.

but i don't feel like that today.

i need more sleep.. and i need to do work so i can be more firm in academic positions and shit.

god.. is that even the right thing to do??

*sigh*

whatever.

eileen

3:44 pm - 02.21.07

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