flippantbebe's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- more regret when sober than drunk hmm... i should do that shit soon my project i meant but dammit i'm lazy but oh well... it can be fixed i just havve to stop and get that drive going. but you know what.. i think i'll do it later... i need to get some shit straightened out. man oh man... soo i'm overly touchy feely when i'm drunk... i've touched like 3 (and probably more) people i have never touched before in my life ... including (oh my god) Rob D. it was a total shock to see him there at jeff's but holy ish did i miss him. i didn't think that i would actually but he's soo hot... I was behind him.. he was looking at the beer pong table game.. and i was staring at his jeans.. his black jeans.. and i saw how loose it was and i grabbed at the loose part (!!!!!!!!!!) {holy shit i just realized he has a penis.....) by his crotch and he turned around and i told him that his pants don't really fit i jus started to poke at randomn parts of his body telling him how much i liked his outfit {not a pick up line really.. he had a great outfit on} and i told him how well he matched and i started to poke at those areas.. and he started to lift up garments to reveal more matches and i even poked his hands cuz they were pale .. matching his clothes ... i even poked his ankle... and finally he just poked me and i just backed off and ran away from him.. and hahah... he even asked if he could get a hug from me.. which was soo damn great of him. and he explained why he had called me.. and i told him he'll never call me this semester.. and he said he will.. and i told him he won't .. and it went back and forth... haha funny... (and i totally think he'll never call me) but maybe i'm wrong. and holy shit .. i was leaning against peter (!!!!!) and i have that little crush on him.. and we sorta bonded ... it was pretty cool man.. and haha.. i hugged steph in the picture.. like oh my god.. that was totally fuckn goofy of me. but i'll admit .. it was fun... a little humiliating now that i think about it .. but hey... i'm such a untouchyfeely type of person when i'm sober that i kind of look forward to being drunk... i get to touch people i wouldn't normally touch because of inhibitions... and haha.. when i shook rob's hand i told him that he was really cute.. and he told me that i was cute... and we shook hands for awhile.. niceee. (i think that he said that cuz i said that...but at least i meant it) i think that adam likes me.. not sure though because he said he was drunk.. like i chilled at his room this morning from like 5:30 AM- 7:30AM.. like he put his foot on top of mine when we were sitting in our seperate chairs... like he was trying to play footsie.... and he even pulled my chair closer to his and put his arm around my shoulders and placed his hand on my neck....... i fuckn hate that but i couldn't tell him that... he's such a good guy. and i couldn't help but feel a little creeped out and hating it a little bit. and i meant every word saying that knowing there's a guy on campus who's here for me to hug.. which is him.. that was all truth. but i feel a bit bad.. like here he was touching me and i didn't really touch him back.. like all i did was playfully kick him... but all i want to be is his friend... i hope he knows that... eileen 4:23 am - 03.03.07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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