flippantbebe's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i want to see you more. darling.. i don't regret telling you how much i like you or how cute/hot i think you are i don't care if you don't like me i don't care if things get awkward because of the things i have said and i don't mind if you'll never think of me the way i think of you ... because frankly i don't want you to it really isn't necessary.. it's enough to know that you exist and i don't mean in that "i lovee you so much that it's only necessary to know that you're alive" i'm not there yet i mean it in the "knowing that you're there to look at makes me feel better about life in general." yes that's lust and no i'm not ashamed. i love the fact that you know... it takes so much weight and burden off of me. i can freely talk about you to almost anyone that i choose.. without worrying if you'll find out.. because you already know. even if you're just a table away.. i can still tell someone that i think you're cute... i don't care if you find out yeah.. i thought you'd be flattered. so rob... when you gave me that seaweed.. was jay ann really telling the truth that you were looking at us while we were talking about you? i did make that heart sign with my hands... and said i didn't care... but hey... i still don't lol. it's cute when people eavesdrop. and i'm not embarassed by the fact that you heard.. i would've told you anyway.. in fact i did ... like twice but seaweed!?! you suck lol. but oh well.. nice gesture... and i never ate it... but i'll definitely save the sticker... just to remember you by. which reminds me i need to update my book.. which hopefully i'll have time to i can't wait to see you again... all of you. but it'd be nice if we hang out on purpose and not by chance. but i don't think any of you see me in that way hopefully you will i really want us to be close... or at least be really good friends that'd make me so damn happy and distracted haha. but i think it'd be worth a lower grade don't you think? that's all eileen 2:34 am - 03.07.07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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