flippantbebe's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i'm a child after all i don't want to kiss anyone... at least... not really. it's so personal... two lips touching... and i'm still scared about hugging people... and i'm still scared about touching boys... but i'm getting better though... i just need to get a little drunk... maybe that's why i'm so eager to get tipsy now... i don't have any inhibitions holding me back from touching others. it's weird... i need something considered toxic in order to touch someone.. someone i like... it's a little depressing... i'm fine talking with them... but i can't bring myself to touch them... no matter how much i want to... it's like this invisible shield... a fucking barrier that prevents me from... getting close to the one i want to know most. right now i can feel myself blush from thinking about holding his hand... or even accidentally touching it... like reaching for the same napkin... god i'm so damn innocent... great... now i'm blushing at the thought of him wanting to get close to me... i think i'd seriously faint if he did... i'm so nervous now and he's nowhere near me.. i'm almost dreading seeing him again... i'm so inexperienced it hurts. eileen 3:46 am - 03.14.07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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