flippantbebe's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- it's such a wonderful day hmm... i don't know. it's a nice day outside... beautiful actually.. for the first in a long time i want to go outside and play. college.. it does things to you. and just a couple of days ago i told brian i hated nature because it was itchy. yeah... that was my reasoning. i couldn't help it.. he was cute.. haven't talked to him in awhile. so things tend to get weird when you get nervous, self-conscious, and been up since 5AM that day. it's weird.. i say stranger and weirder things when i'm sober than when i get drunk. i don't know why though... maybe i should get drunk more often and see if it balances out? haha.. that's stupid logic right there. i tend to get overly worried about things... like the past papers i handed in.. i thought they weren't that good... i even asked my teacher if i could redo them... but when i got them baack.. i got an A-. like fuck i'm going to redo that paper lol. but i think i'm going to go this way some more... like to shit last minute and pull off the miracle that is my A status lol... but who knows... it can backfire... and i think it backfired yesterday... i shitted out a shitty paper... that i know i could've done better on.. but fuck whatever. i'll do things sooneer and better next time... but you know what? i say shit and sometimes i don't do it .. or even mean it. so i don't know if i will this time around. hmm... that was very honest of me. anyway.. i'm going to skidaddle and do something productiveish... not hw.. but laundry and my notebook collage thingy. maybe one day i'll take pictures of that notebook and show another side of me... there i go ... half-lying again. but seriously... i want to show you guys my work... i just have to finish it... or say that i'm finish with it. shit... the peple beside me are yelling again at each other... those stupid bitches. sorry.. had to let that one out. eileen 11:42 am - 04.03.07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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