flippantbebe's Diaryland Diary

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I accept you creepy creepy girl.

when i proposed to you... through that facebook photo comment... i halfway meant it.

i didn't mean it because i knew i wasn't ready for the commitment, the financial responsibility, the fact that i didn't know you that well {in knowledge i'm an acquaintance}, and plus i don't love you.

i meant it in the way i know i can... i know i can marry you, happily so... and plus i know i'll love you eventually... if you weren't so mean about it...

i shouldn't be surprised that you said

you're talking to bob right?

in reply.

{bob was tagged in the photo... i wonder what you would have said if i typed Tom...?}

but this is.. more or less... what my marriage proposal was:

wow... kickarse hair, beijing, banjo, droll humor, and now white water rafting.

...marry me? lol.

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i would have said more.. but i couldn't think of other things... i was going to tell him how cute he was... or maybe i should have said white lol.. haha.. i don't know its all good though.. i wasnt really that hurt.. i should've known he was going to be so curt...

but still.. it kinda hurt

and i was kinda hoping for a yes haha

i'm so naive that it backfires on me sometimes...

ignorance isn't always bliss when you act on it...

it's only when you don't do anything and just remain where you are... when you don't try anything to find out what would've happened.

well.. now i know... now i know better and not to proposition some boy...

i should've known better but i don't know... i just wanted to try... but hey... at least the first one made one boy happy.

haha... i think Tom's creeped out by me or something... if i ever see him again... i think i'll just act as usual... i don't even know if i'm going to ask him to watch the "After Life" movie with me when i ge it....

i still want to.. but this might make this awkward though... hmm.

so maybe it was mistake? or maybe i'm just making it bigger than it has to be? we'll just see when i see him...

i don't want to be worried for no reason... that would suck... but then again i don't want to not worry if there is a reason...

wait... what the fuck am i talking about!?!? it's soo bad to worry anyway... i mean... i could think of reasons and plan shit out... but not worry.. that's just too much man--

i have to keep on remember that this is just a comment... not a big deal.. and he probably didn't give it another thought.. just thought it was funny that i said it.. and that what he replied was funny.. which it was haha.

besides... if anything... i could delete it... but i think i'll keep it cuz: