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worse things didn't happen so be happy with that

for a while now i've been a little sad. almost depressed really. but now i feel better thanx to hermine and epiphanies i just had:

i didn't lose the scholarship

i can (hopefully) retake the class and (hopefully) get rid of that grade

i can do so much better than that... i'm even a little peeved that i got those A-s... i could've gotten straight A's.

the school year is over. Marrielle .. and i forget... are right... i should relax and jsut be glad it's done.

i know i deserve better than that and at least put effort into it... so i won't give up on trying to find out why i got such a failing mark.

i shouldn't dwell on it anymore.. and i should've stopped dwelling on it a long time ago... i'm not gonna change anything by moping right??

i have a lot i want to do this summer... mostly things i want to do for myself... and i haven't really accomplished any of them yet.. i should change that.

...anyway.. that's it. that's what i arrived at...

oh yeah

i should try to get in touch with people again... i don't want to be burn bridges... well.. i sorta do... but i have to stop being such a loner...

i hate to admit.. actually i kinda like admitting it... but i can live without these people quite willingly... i'm fine if the only contact i have with them is just facebook comments over the summer.. it doesn't really faze me.

but it's not healthy.. i may live with a household full of people but i shouldn't alienate myself from my peers... i should make an effort and just call them.. like i used to.

long before... i would just call up people on a weekend just to talk.. just to catch up... i don't really know why i stopped that... but it was really good to catch up with them.. even if it was only a few minutes.

i should call up people this weekend... maybe i'll start up with kevin? hmm... i don't think i can.. but we will see.

eileen

12:26 am - 05.26.07

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